I was constantly confused by inconsistency. Its a new effort to come to the Lord and let Him be something new to me: the place I bring my injustices and frustration. Hot Podcasts. This season, 11 incredible survivors share their stories of shocking life discoveries and the recovery from them. What an injustice. Youll see information about Young Living and probably food, cause it matters to me and Iplan my travels based on the destinations snacks. Tee is happy to help out her close friend and coworker, Slyvia, when she becomes sick. And then support her when she needs to get away for this nutball. "SmartLess" with Jason Bateman, Sean Hayes, & Will Arnett is a podcast that connects and unites people from all walks of life to learn about shared experiences through thoughtful dialogue and organic hilarity. A listener makes a discovery that leads Sara to final answers in her quest for the truth. Theyre doing the heavy lifting when it comes to compiling my story for the public, not just for its sheer shock-factor, but because Im far from the only victim of psychopathic abuse. It reminds me an awful lot of rubbing a dogs nose in his own urine when he goes in the house. So, that felt oddly relieving. This season, we continue to share the stories of incredible survivors and their shocking life discoveries and recovery from them. I believe the story from The Year that is No More is not my own. Is it time yet? Josh and Chuck have you covered. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. For free and confidential resources, please visit: somethingwaswrong.com/resourcesS15 Artwork by the amazing Sara Stewart @GreaterThanOkay - Instagram.com/greaterthanokayTo purchase SWW merch, please visit: represent.com/store/somethingwaswrongSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. Charts. Thank goodness, because without their constructive input, I never would have taken a good hard look at things and asked myself what I could have done differently! (Anyone else get phrases or words rather than songs stuck in their heads?) Quite honestly, knowing the waves of clarity waiting on the other side, I would walk through that valley again. Its fine! Not just for us, but for those that hear our testimonies, I think it looks like freedom. Press J to jump to the feed. This discounts and erases the experiences of male victims of all ages, as well as female victims who have been abused by other females and males who have been abused by males. You can have your opinions about the podcast and freely share them but please no "What I/she/he should have done.." narratives please. Its close. While I see major positioning and personal growth happening, and how God rescued me from an incredibly dangerous situation, Ive felt forced to wait, having lost a life I loved through no fault of my own. It still irritates me. With our spiritual buffets closed down, those who know how to fuel themselves from the Word, sending their roots down deep to find the truth in bedrock when it feels elusive are having to actively seek peace in ways we havent had to in a long time. https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. The survivor stories are brave and valuable, but the hosts commentary at the top of episodes is downright irresponsible. Just when I thought Id pulled everything I could from a single passage, shed tell me I was cutting a note short and to let it breathe. So.What Else? Studying him and being sensitive, I set the grocery bags on the ground to hug him and was met with stony silence. The loosey-goosey-ness has been humbling and revealing. S1 E15: Safety + Coping Strategies for Leaving Abusive Relationships. The first season deals with a young woman named Sara who was in engaged to a man who she later found out was not who he claimed to be. Season 9 features the story of two survivors, Danielle and Kenji, who were brought together by traumatic life circumstances to solve a shared mystery who the f*ck is Ardie? Soon after I get that thing, I go on my merry way and get busy. I have a hard time separating my ideas of others dreams for me vs. my dreams for myself. Learn more about your ad choices. Until the week before her wedding when she learned - something w Listen Later. In private, (more as time went on), there was a heaviness or something often weighing him down that I felt the need to support. For those who are in recovery and by some chance are reading this, gosh I hope this stream of raw consciousnesshelps in some way. New episodes come out every Monday for free, with 1-week early access when you join Amazon Music or 1-week early and ad-free for Wondery+ subscribers [Alice + John + Naomi] The Wheels Fall Off. Read More Also Listen On More Options Social Media Pages Share This Show I believed that charming, selfless man would come back he was just under some stress today. Many times Id come home to $300+ of Whole Foods groceries in the fridge. I remember finally mastering it. Totally. I had been duped and thereis something better. Physical abuse is evil, but emotional abuse is insidious as it hides, especially with gaslighting involved. I am a multi-disciplinary maker of beautifully useful things that enrich lives. I had been slowly and systematically brainwashed over several months to question my reality and believe I was a piece of work, so there was a lot of repair that needed to happen. In careers, romantic relationships, etc, we might settle for something a step above or similar to what we knew before, because at least its not as bad. Bravery is a choice of action regardless of fear being present. For the first time, I ignored this person and put it in the cart without even knowing why, because I never buy prints. Something Was Wrong When Sara got engaged, she thought she was marrying the Christian man of her dreams. Then it uses those keys to wreak havoc where trust was carefully built. Also Listen On More Options Social Media Pages Share This Show Latest Episodes [Diana] The Devil in Disguise New Episodes First E S15 E5 Feb 23, 2023 1 hr 9 min Play with Wondery+ Disturbed and confused, Iridian decides to seek the truth for herself. It was a scary piece for me. For those who are unfamiliar with psychopathsand narcissists, this is one way they succeed while minimizing damage visible to the public eye. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. I could fart and hed call it blessed. We have felt like square pegs in round holes because the fit didnt exist until now. Sara Gonzalez (Lewis) joins us on SWE for a long chat about a past relationship that took a crazy turn. It is out of those days that our roots are deepened in their search for water. I guess chicks that write have blogs now, so thats me. Join us for a heavy dose of research with a dash of comedy thrown in for flavor. They only met the abuser because I was pregnant. A month or so before the wedding, he started this game around withholding affection. I felt sick to my stomach and wish Id reacted differently now, but at that point my discernment had faded and I deferred to him. He would shed actual tears when we would sit together watching movies or just cuddling on the couch, and I would think geez how damaged are you that this moment means this much? Something in my gut turned. I was stunned. I'm on episode 10 and have enjoyed it but also feel like maybe Sara is a littleextra lol. Genuinely curious), especially in light of his critical comments on alcohol. I was in shock for several blocks while he bounced up and down in the drivers seat like a big kid in a puddle. Responded as if I could do no wrong because he was in awe of everything. When that light feels like a pinpoint, we have to lean in closer and He is faithful to meet us there. 6h. Or we feel we need someone. It was very beautiful, covered in blossoming vines and beautiful flowers, but it was a wall. Youre loose-lipped! as if it was obvious and went about his business. Its still happening. Agreed. Just ten years after being. Lol. No backhanded comments or sarcasm. I have these conversations with my close friends all the TIME about what God is showing us, and what we feel Hes doing but I dont vocalize it on a more public platform because I have a diverse friend group and never want to alienate those who think and feel differently than I do. One moment, someone he knew was a genius. His driving was aggressive, earning him multiple tickets. Suddenly his explanation changed from claiming he hadnt said it, to having said it but Id completely misread the whole thing. (I dont know if Im ready to post my thoughts on church leadership that encourages anyone to remain in an abusive marriage. And what is it really like to be doxxed and harassed online to the point the FBI has to get involved? Join the something was wrong Facebook to learn about him. Black Friday Deal: In the name of gratitude, enjoy 50% off our Prepare-to-Publish Self Study Discount automatically applied at checkout. One of the things I value most is treasuring the personal information of my friends. No bruises to show for their huge act of leaving and tearing their family apart. The vileness of words spoken in the final couple of months, contrasted with the soft, loving words that originally sucked me in made me nauseated. This episode comes out for free on Thursday, February 16th 2023. Claim and edit this page to your liking. I am not licensed to diagnose, but trusty ol Google checklists for APD and Sociopathy fit my experiences nearly 100%. Use the prompts, write for 5-20 minutes each day and youll be amazed at how quickly you make progress on your book. We would have this wedding. The story is told on a podcast called Something Was Wrong. If it was my sister, I'd have probably created a true crime story for all you to listen to. Press J to jump to the feed. The story is told on a podcast called Something Was Wrong. It was reckless, cruel, and showed a total disregard for decency. May 1, 2021 3:47pm. Something Was Wrong is an award winning docuseries podcast about the discovery, trauma and recovery of being engaged to a sociopath. The verses right before the ones I shared: v.10: For as the rain and the snow come down from Heaven and do not return there but water the earth, making it bring forth and sprout, giving seed to the sower and bread to the eater, so shall my word be that goes out from my mouth; It shall not return to me empty, but it shall accomplish that which I purpose, and shall succeed in the thing for which I sent it.. This is a really great podcast that delves into very important issues. His family was placing big burdens on him. Taking things personally yet again. Something Was Wrong is an Iris Award-Winning immersive storytelling docuseries podcast that focuses on the discovery, trauma, and recovery from emotionally (and otherwise) abusive relationships. The people we surround ourselves with are who we will reflect, so hopefully were all chasing something that freaks us out on some level. He had an explanation as to why Bryan had sent him an electronic copy for safe-keeping in case the hard copies got lost in the mail, but his point was my failure in how I handled the situation. Ok thats wild fast! Until the week before her wedding when she learned - something was. When I play it, I cant help but get lost in the stark contrasts of who I was during those hundreds of hours spent learning and refining it, and who I am now Mentally wandering through big, landmark memories of discovery, adventure, victories, and fears. It completely deflated our evening and had me walking on eggshells all night. One of many is a phrase that loves to sneak its way in if I dont fight it. ), Through that book, God mended me in ways I never expected and might previously have resisted had I not been desperate for something to tell me who I really was and why all of me was important. Add a hefty sprinkle of guilt for feeling that way, since Im fully aware of my safety and blessings in the moment, and you have the tension of right now. It scared me numerous times. And having been set free from sin, and having become slaves of God -Rom 6:22. i just found this podcast this week and I am racing through it! The excitement quickly faded when unexpected flashbacks accompanied the unboxing of last winters clothes, and with each cooler day, I started digging my heels into the ground to slow down the deja vus invading at random times. Happy Tuesday from Tennessee! If you could see what I see. I asked myself, what must I be doing wrong if my own fiance doesnt trust me with his secrets? I was mortified over the tears that forced their way down my face all over again, and now the shame and embarrassment made me feel like a little kid. 10 no. A woman was praying for me shortly after I called off my wedding and she kept repeating, Hope is NOT deferred., Never. He always meets me. I was so excited for an entire weekend with a couple of my favorite people! S1 E2: It Was Weird. Until one week before their wedding when she learned - something was wrong. I may not be all things, but I can be obedient and He is faithful. Instead of the thorn shall come up the cypress; instead of the brier shall come up the myrtle; and it shall make a name for the Lord, an everlasting sign that shall not be cut off.. I can see why people write the whole thing off, especially after hearing about how I allowed my dog to be treated. I have a feeling she's had to be the family empath, which made it a natural role with the narcissist fiance. You have all these moving parts literally every digit is moving but dont ever allow fingers 2 and 5 to physically lift from the keys while playing because those notes are tied. (You will get caught.) I thought so too but upon checking this isn't the case. In public, he was extremely high-energy and intense. You can listen to new episodes early and ad-free on Amazon Music included with Prime. Women are excellent at busying themselves going about duties and often sacrificing those little girl dreams in the process. Sociopathic and Psychopathic tendencies start with Antisocial Personality Disorder. You in the beginning.. My family was never like this but these people remind me of a lot of families I grew up with at church. Jesus said to approach Him as children do. Thats whats happening. Most of them are a bit extra IMO, lol. For years, my MO has been to sit back and wait before acting. He said, to be honest Im strongly considering heading back home. 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